Commitment is a crazy thang,
take you by the hand and be like, “Step right this way.”
And you go, down the rabbit hole
but you know it’s not a hole, it’s just The Way.
Like a supernova thas gonna explode I guess,
time is here and now and also past and future
spiraling over again and again…
it gets to the point that there is no point
good luck with that.
Yesterday I was up then right back down,
flat on my back, could not sleep;
it was gruesome in the strangest possible way.
It was like, drained, every last drop, and all that was left
was me swimming in thought.
to keep from sinking…
Go, where would I go? What’s left?
Nothing is my everything, yes ~
So this is me looking at the phone ringing,
smiling wanly like, No fuhhckinn way. I’m paper thin.
But I notice there’s also this feeling in my heart,
this low beat like,
Wow what would it feel like if I were alive?
And then I think this is one of two and
what’s up on the other side.
But I can’t feel anything,
I’m barely alive.
I miss the point.
This happens all the time.
I’m thinking one thing because I’m stuck in my mind.
And I’m thinking wait, what
and I actually ask.
And then I get it.
And then I Get IT.
And then everything shifts and I finally understand.
I mean, I have no idea what I understand.
This post isn’t meant to be read at all.
How do you hope to help your fellow writers—now or in the future?
I just want to read your words.